Does anyone have an extra phone laying around? Mine broke yesterday and I need a Cingular/AT&T phone until I find one or just get the iphone.

Let me know if you have one or know anyone that does!

So let's begin from Friday.

My dad and I woke up and left for the Grand Canyon early...finally got there then went through an Indian Reservation. We got to see a realy cool part of the Grand Canyon and also got to see how the people on the reservations live. It's pretty depressing how they once lived so richly off the land and now they are so poor and the location is literally in the middle of nowhere. It's about 50+ miles to anywhere close. Pretty shitty how our government screwed all the natives out of their own land in a way force them to live so poorly. There really is no way out and if so, it's very difficult. Friday night we got into Sedona, AZ and went straight to bed.

Saturday we got up and went hiking to Bell Rock which is like 2.7 miles one way. I honestly can't believe I did it...it must have been the vortex or something. haha. Anyways, we then went to the church and to slide rock where it's a natural slide in the rocks where a stream flows through. We watched tons of people fall and be really retarded. We then went into town and at the end of the night we ate at this really nice resturant where I tried boar. it sounds disgusting, but it was amazing.

Sunday we woke up early and came home.

Monday was my "first" day at Disney. Pretty much just orientation and another tour of the studio lot. It was pretty easy.

Yesterday was my first real day at work. I spent most of my day getting set up but they didn't hesitate to give me work. It's pretty amazing where I work actually. I'm in a high-rise on the 29th floor...and to give you an idea, your ears pop when you go up and down the elevators. Speaking of elevators, these ones are SO fast you get that feeling of being on a rollercoaster when you go down. haha. At lunch they took me out for Thai.

Today was cool, I found out I'm going to be working on National Treasure 2's audit team. The movie isn't that great, but I'm pretty excited because this is why I wanted to get into accounting in the first place. I get to see what goes on first hand and get to be on set. haha, if I see Nicholas Cage I'll probably just start to laugh. They had a huge Pirates's event on the studio lot and they gave away a bunch of free stuff. Those are always fun.

On Friday I go on a tour of the Prospect Studio lot where they film Grey's Anatomy and all their soaps...so that should be neat.

The best thing about Disney is they give away free stuff and food all the time. One of many nice benefits of working for the studios.

It's insane that I feel like I've been out of the loop for a while now and yet I have crazy days and something to do everyday. The past 3 weeks have flown by. I'm planning on doing something cool this weekend. I wanna go to the beach or go dance! I think that I'm okay to drink again, I've given myself about a month without drinking.

So all of my anti-socialness for the past 1.5-2 weeks will be over in about 1 week. =) That makes me happy because I miss talking and seeing my friends. I don't mean to neglect anyone! It's all that girl's fault who freaked me out about a C- being considered a fail at school. That scared me.

I've been studying like crazy for finals, avoiding going online for more then 10 minutes a day, and discipling myself to study early. So far so good...but my eyes and brain hurt from focusing too much, I really feel cross-eyed. Once tomorrow is done, I will be a very happy girl.

This weekend will be nice. I will be in Sedona, AZ with my dad relaxing and hanging out doing whatever the heck we want with no agenda...NO AGENDA! Thank God. Then on Monday I start at Disney working full-time...not so much fun, but it's good money and hopefully I'll make as good of friends as I did last year...we were inseperable at work.

I'm just really looking forward to the weekends in the summer with beach days and no homework.

My stress levels have been making me go crazy and I really need to relax...be more care-free. I'm feeling better as this week goes on because I know it'll be over soon.

Do not drink so much you puke that night and over 10 times the next day.




Yesterday was horrrrrible, I have never been so sick like that in my life. Today is A LOT better.

I got some sun and I'm not as white anymore.

This weekend has been insane. I think Friday was my only day to relax...let's recap:

Friday:

Pretty much went to go look at Mini Coopers to see if it's realistic to get one. I can afford it, I just don't want to pay for 5 years and have a loan for that long...I'm working on it and it's looking very likely I'll get one. I came home and watched scary movies and was scared the whole night. I made Scott walk ahead of me the entire time.

Saturday:

Scott and I went to go get his passport picture taken...the place was closed. So we went to my house and cooked food. We finished and went back to another place and then went to apply for his passport. We rushed around and went to Amanda's wedding reception and that was fun. After we had to make an appearance for Mike's birthday in Fullerton...and Scott and I finally got home at 1am...which is pretty early but it felt like 4am to me from being out and about all day.

I found out that my aunts cute puppy had to be put to sleep yesterday because she had Parvo which is a virus and for small dogs, such as my aunts Yorkie, it's a slim change they'll survive. The baby got a blood transfusion. It just makes me so sad that on Tuesday when I was watching her, she ran and ran and ran around for over an hour not even getting tired, how can someone happen so quickly? She was the cutest puppy in the world and I could have easily seen myself visiting her forever and wanting to watch her all the time. So sad, but she was so bad, it was for the best. She was only with us for 1 week, but she made me so happy during that short time.

Sunday:

Today I'm going for a lunch thing that I reeeallly would rather not go, then I'm going to my Dad's house for a bit for Thai food. That should be nice.

Tomorrow I'm going for a haircut from Mikey who I haven't talked to in ages which is nice because I was going to get a haircut anyways so it was perfect timing.

I really need to rest this next weekend. I've been so crazy busy lately that my body is aching...that's probably not good.

So yesterday was a very strange day. It was full of a lot of emotion.

I get so upset because I feel like people don't listen to me. They hear me but my message doesn't get across to them because they think it's not very important. I tell people how I feel so that they can try to make me not feel like that again in the future. I just got so upset and frustrated that I screamed and yelled for someone to listen to me. I think I got my message across, but I don't know what's going to happen for the future. The only way for people to know that I'm serious is for me to yell and scream because everyone thinks it's a joke...to let you all know, it's not and I'm not.

After being upset and angry yesterday, my mom, sister and I went to go get out passport applications submitted in Buena Park. After navigating through all the road blocks and construction, we finally get there and come to find out that my mom forgot the birth certificates. So we drive back and finally get back to the post office. The lady working was so rude and didn't help us. She also gave us attitude that we didn't have the correct birth certificates that the GOVERNMENT gave us. So we wasted 1.5 hours driving around. So then we found a place to take our passport pictures and at least we got that done.

Later in the afternoon I went down to HB and rode bikes and ate Thai food. It was a nice change from a chaotic day and it totally put my day in perspective. I felt a hundred times better after being outside on a such a nice day.

I came home, since nothing was going on that I knew of, and watched TV with Evelyn and Riley and then went to my bed and passed out.

In short, it was a pretty intense day.

Lastly, I've come to the realization that I do not like when people use the word "what-not". It really serves no purpose...just say that you mean.

I ate the best brunch ever this morning....I feel like I do not have to eat for another 7 years right now.

I need a nap.

So I'm a happy girl now. For now my stress has gone since my patience has finally paid off. Instead of paying $100 per ticket to see The Mars Volta in huge venues in LA, Berkeley or Ventura, I made out very well. After a month of searching for tickets I got my tickets to see The Mars Volta at the Troubadour.

I made 3 people's days by finding the tickets after everyone said they were sold out. When I'm determined to get/find/solve something, I get it done.

Oh how wonderful April 2nd will be.

Thank you very much to those of you who were willing to help me out today!

So I thought that this week was going to be good, instead between yesterday and today, I am stressed beyond belief...and I think I'm getting shingles again because of it...disgusting!

I went to my professor to see what questions I got wrong on my test and I find out one of them was totally unfair which is a good 8 points I could have had. He is a very literal and particular professor so I got the answer -$140 and wrote it in as E. Other amount, please specify. So I did my work and I wrote down ($140). He had the choice of $140...which was the "correct" answer. That's not fair since there was no negative amount and that was not the answer. He justified it by saying that "I asked for a gain or loss...the sign didn't matter" Well, sorry...it does in accounting. So he said he'd think about it so I will bug him until I get it.

Secondly I'm very stressed at work. On day it's "rush rush rush on this job...it's due in 1 week"...So i spend all my time ordering those materials and then the next week it changes to "we don't need those materials...we need it for this job, it's due in 4 days!" So i spend all this time rushing around trying to get things ordered then I find out I can't order them b/c the girl at the front desk doesn't pay out vendors...so it reflects badly on me since I can't get the materials here on time.

School is very stressful...only 1 class really and I have a presentation due on Thursday which I am not looking forward to...only 7 more weeks to go!!

Oh goodness me, my heart is ready to explode. Scott is usually the only person who is able to calm me down in these situations.

So this weekend was fun. I did thing I haven't done in a while and that I missed.

Friday I refused to stay home so all of us went out to Cinespace where I originally wanted to go from the start of the night. It was fun except I had to talk shit to some stupid girl who was freaking out. I had to calm myself since I was getting in the crazy mode I get into before I start fighting...I have a lot more to loose then that stupid girl did. She wanted me to hit her, I wouldn't give her the satisfaction. It was fun except I was sooooo incredibly tired by the end of the night.

Yesterday I did homework most of the day, went to the park with the dogs and then my sister, dad, his gf, scott and I went to a Pow-wow that I have missed so much. We used to go all the time when we were younger and my sister and I would dance with the rest of the people with our shawls. I really miss having culture in my life and tradition so I think I'm going to get back in touch with that side of myself. It doesn't matter how much I watch the Plains men dancing, it's amazing. I just love the way they move and it makes me so happy. And I've decided I will make my own shawl and jewelry and I will research the designs to make them accurate. I'm pretty excited about it. Scott and I were pooped by the time we got back that we passed out.

Today I should be doing homework but it's so difficult to get going on it. I have a speech to present on Thursday and I have my stuff ready, but I haven't vocally practiced it yet. Ugh, I hate those.

I want more weekends like this one.

I will leave you with pictures from last weekend...it was a blast too.

( This was fun )

This weekend nice. Friday was tiring but fun. I worked from 7am - 4pm non-stop, rushed home to shower and go to dinner, went home and layed down. I didn't expect to do anything but sleep, but that changed and I didn't get to bed until 3:15am...and I woke up at 8:30am the next morning.

Saturday I felt sick all day and fell asleep at 8:30pm. I wanted to go out but when I woke up at 11:00pm, I was told that I was going to go out...without makeup or my hair done (I wasn't too pleased about that). I ate popcorn and then went back to sleep. I slept probably about 11 hours. It was amazing.

Sunday was lunch with my dad. We ate Indian food and I still love it...I forgot what I was missing out on. I cleanned a whole bunch, finally washing my car, and got a visit from my grandparents but I was too frusterated to enjoy their company because of one of my professors and his lame directions for homework. I showered then watched my programs and happily went to sleep.

I miss my dad a lot. It's so weird how yesterday I noticed how different we are but yet we're so much alike. I wish he lived closer.

Now, I'm off to school to see how I did on my Midterms! I'm kind of excited to find out.

So life changes so quickly it's insane.

My best friend is getting married tomorrow and it's crazy to think we're getting to that age where we really start to notice that we're growing up. People are having babies and getting engaged too, it's really weird to see all of this with people I know and that are close to me in age.

I wish there was a way for me to know what my life will be like in 5 years. I think that'd help me with a lot of the decisions I have to make even if they're hard. I know any hard decision I make will completely suck at the time, but eventually I'll be okay.

I'd like to actually put that into action one day, but for now I'm fine where I'm at. I hope to accomplish everything I'm set out to do and to be happy doing it.

Life is good where it's at right now. I know I will be okay and keep this positive outlook on life.

I feel that people wig out too easily. Like they get offended because after I've tried for a long time, not that I'm not paying attention, they don't like me.

I've tried and tried again even after mean things have been said about me and I don't get why I continued to try. Now that I've stopped and I've been happier people wig out. I don't need drama right now, ESPECIALLY right now please.

This is not a drama imposed post, it's just a post about how I cannot understand some people. I'm probably one of the only people that defended them even after I hadn't really known them. I am seeing people's true colors lately and they are pretty damn dark.

I need fun, I need to forget, and I need to move on. I can't let things like this hold me back and go appologize for something I never did or else it'll keep happening.

Trust me, I've done this for over 4 years I know I get walked all over and things never change...I'm changing to not let these situations happen again.

On another note, this weekend was different. VERY DIFFERENT...I don't know if that's a good or bad thing.

To find out that the person you love and care about can say something like "When you're in a relationship, valentine's day isn't a big deal" EVEN AFTER you told them how you felt about not getting a card, it really shows their true colors.

I'm single and this is weird. It bums me out to know that I never meant that much to them and I was a friend rather then a girlfriend. I don't know why I put up with this for so long and now that I can, I'm putting my foot down and I'm not letting up.

I'm tired of not feeling pretty, appreciated, wanted and everything else that a girlfriend should feel, ESPECIALLY after 4.5 years. I just wish he would have gotten the picture the first time I talked to him about this almost 4 years ago. I'm just stupid for sticking around and that's why it's gotten this bad.

My reasoning for my decision was "if it's this bad now, it's only going to get worse." You can't change a person and have to accept them for who they are. In relationships there shouldn't be compromise. If you really get along with someone, you don't need to compromise and accept everything they do. I don't think I'll ever find anyone that I'm truly compatible with and that's why I'd rather not get married.

The funny thing is that any boyfriend I've had and anything they had done wrong or hurtful, somehow I find out. I always find out everything somehow and I think it's an awful punishment. I'd rather not know and live my life thinking everything is okay then hearing horrible things that dissapoint me and make me upset.

This weekend is going to be weird and I feel that I only have one friend out there that really cares for my well-being. I'm not reaching out to anyone anymore because I feel that I do too much for people with nothing in return. I'm tired of giving and never receiving anything at all in return. I'm probably going to keep to myself a lot from now on.

Dear World,

I'm tired, sad, confused, and not myself.

I don't know what's going on with my brain lately. Maybe it had something to do with that massive headache I had.

Sincerely,

Bummed.

I just woke up without the headache I've had for 5 days now. You don't know how happy I am because of that.

I haven't got a bad migrane like that in years and I have no clue what triggered it this time. I finally got a hold of my medicine that I used to take for then yesterday and I was in bliss. I hadn't been that relaxed in days and I woke up completely fine today after doing absolutely nothing yesterday because of the pain.

I wish I could switch that portion of my brain where headaches happen. I get so jealous of people who never get headaches.

In short, I'm happy that my brain isn't pounding and isn't in absolute pain.

So, as you all know, or not know, I love to cook. So today I went to Barnes and Nobel to buy a book on American Sideshows and rather, I got pulled away into the cookbook section. Oh, I love cookbooks! I bought 2 cookbooks on Thai and Indian food to add to my Asian /Southeast Asian cookbook collection. I hope to buy a Korean, Vietnamese, Italian, Mediterranean and Spanish cookbook so I can feed my face. When it comes to food, I don't care how much it costs. I'd rather eat well then have the newest clothes....well, sort of.

I will be a busy bee cooking next weekend. I will again attempt more Southeast Asian Cuisine and experiment with all the recipes that look amazing and try them out. I want to have a dinner party again since I enjoy to feed people...and not just hamburgers, salads or something they can eat every other day. I love for people to try new foods with me to see what they have been missing out on and open their eyes...even if they don't like it, I still like when people have given things a try.

I was so giddy and throughout the entire superbowl as I looked through these cookbooks for hours.

I have finally realized my loves in life...Ceramics and Cooking. Both are really relaxing to me and I love seeing (and tasting) the end product of the two.

Some people just can't hang.

Work is annoying today and I just ate McDonalds...gross.

I can't want to sleep tonight! I'm ready for bed and it's barely 1pm.

Oh, and I can't breathe well; thanks allergies.